The Return.....

So, today it happened. I rejoined Facebook. I was going to do it last week but chickened out, which meant I had to do it this week. When I say 'had' to..... We're off to Cuba next week and a girl's gotta brag, right?! If there's only a few days to go it doesn't have the same effect. Well - that's what I think in my head anyway! So today I did it.

If you've missed the reason I left in the first place, you'll find it here. And for a long while I wondered if I would ever go back, I've not missed it. And Salt in the Womb (whose blog I've always loved) wrote a very good piece on why infertiles should, if only occasionally, leave social media (read it here if you haven't already). And so it has always played on my mind. But I like catching up with old friends, reading what people are up to and keeping in touch with those in far away places that it would be more difficult to keep in touch with without it.

So yes, I have returned but with a renewed attitude towards it. As I said I have genuinely not missed it these past (almost) three months. I have unfriended those that don’t make me feel good about myself and unfollowed those that caused me such hurt as to walk away from it in the first place (sadly, unfriending them would be the proverbial 'hot potato' within the friendship group.....). Also I will attempt, from now on, to be far more honest in my comments and statuses – whilst still aiming to be positive. I cannot abide those who post negative statuses looking for attention and so I will never be one of ‘those’ people, but at the same time I will no longer sugar-coat anything. It is a communication tool, it is not something one should live one’s life through.

Let's just hope I can stick to that ethos! Otherwise the next time I leave FB, it might be for good.

The Ramblings of a Mad Infertile Who Needs a Holiday :)

Sleepy. Soooooooooo sleepy! How are we already in March? Where is this year going? Why am I so tired? Questions, questions, questions. Where are we now? What plans for the future?

Well, our immediate plan is a holiday J and we cannot wait! We're off to Cuba at the end of this month, it's very much deserved and we're very excited. Zika virus aside, obviously. Sod's law eh?! Just as we're getting 'things' back on track we suddenly feel that we have to be careful (oh the irony).

Still, a recharge and a reboot are definitely what is required. We used to go away in September/October but since I've got this new job that's not been possible. Altho, due to my new role, a break at this time of year is most welcome! The job kinda turns the calendar year on its head and goes by a completely different cycle so it's actually worked out quite well to go away at this time of year. We did it last year too and it was lovely. With any luck we'll take a long weekend somewhere in October (Berlin and NYC currently on the cards for that one) but aside from that, and possibly seeing friends over the summer, this is our big holiday.

It's currently in the late 80s over there. And no, I don't mean it's full of shoulder pads and rave music. I work in old money! It's in the late 20s for those that work on the other scale. Altho surely that should mean flapper dresses, gin and jazz?! Anyway, I digress.

I like digressing. I feel like my brain somehow works differently, I go off on tangents and no one else quite gets them. Hubby's getting better, but I do feel like there's something creative in me somewhere. I don't know if it's a book, a film, a piece of art. Or something else entirely. One of these days I will take the time to explore and see what comes out of me, as it were. Altho I have no idea when! 

It's weird, I very much 'fell' into my current job but I absolutely love it. In a warped kind of way I'm quite glad that the old job got so bad (info here) as I don't think I would appreciate this job quite so much if the old one hadn't been quite so shit. As Hubby affectionately says, this job is just the three things that I love - writing lists, organising things and being bossy. Which is pretty much true! Should I admit to that....?!

How long I will do it for I have no idea, I can certainly see me doing it short term and almost definitely medium term. But then what? What could I do with my life? Kids or no kids, I definitely feel like there is more to me. I just need to work out what. In the meantime tho, I'm just going to keep counting down to that holiday :)